Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

So the now official ex called me tonight and apologized for some of the harsh words we exchanged on Friday.  It took a lot for him to apologize, which I really appreciated.  I also apologized for being so whiney and complaining so much lately about the real estate stuff to him.

It would have been so easy to just accept the apology and know that all was well and make up and move on to our next date together.  I do really like him and enjoy the time we spend together, but I had to really be honest with what is in my heart and I really want someone who is physically here and emotionally present with me at all times.  I’ve always known that I can’t do the long-distance thing, and I just can’t keep letting myself develop feelings for him.

We both understand what the issues are and there aren’t really any hard feelings or misunderstandings.  We didn’t argue.  We just talked honestly about what was working and what wasn’t, and we talked about the things we need and the things we both need to do and to figure out. 

It hurts, it sucks, and I want to be with him right now, but we agreed to part in that sad, ‘let’s-be-friends-but-we-know-we-can’t-really’-type of way.  As hard as it is, it’s the only decision that feels right.

*sigh*

Breaking up is soooo hard to do.